GARRRR! I need...stuffs! YESH! i love you people! goodnite and good luck! Current Mood: oh myy bitches! we be rockin!
|Why doth the world change so?
Tonight, I read through some things...I don't know what exactly gave me the urge, but it was there and I did it. I'm not sure whether I regret it now or not, that will all sink in as I'm trying to sleep, I'm sure. I went back through and read some of my old conversations with Sabrina. I'm trying my hardest to not think about her and blank her out of my life, but I can't, at least not fully. She was the first person who I really felt I could call friend. She was that one person who just kind of jumpstarted my dead-end life. Maybe it's just nostalgia, but...I don't know...I wish I could be her friend again. But I think it would hurt her too much for me to even talk to her again. And the last time I contacted her was a very angry e-mail...one I wrote only because of some unknown anger that swelled inside of me. I regret it, but I can't really take back my own words, written so plainly. At the time, they felt like right and justifiable words, words that I felt like I had been holding in. But, they were the wrong words, I think, now. All I know is that I can't deny that empty space in my mind where she once resided. I don't know what even prompted all this, maybe its just something that will go away by the morning, maybe not. I just want things to be right again. But as I told her, in one of the last times we spoke, you can't live in an imaginary world forever. It's best to shatter that frail illusion now, to prevent future disappointment. I wish I could practice what I preach. But, it seems I am the damned Hypocrite. I promise, I'll be witty and smart-assed next time. Just not tonight. Current Mood: confused
Fun night tonight. Took a ride out to amazing places with the K-meister and Cristen. Ate at Uno's, friggin awesome place to eat except the nachos are hardcore on my stomach. Drove around, I jumped into a snowbank for no good reason...it hurt my arm that started hurting last night a little bit, but, it was worth it. Sometimes, thats the price of the show business. Now, sitting at home, with my brand new 60 gig hard drive, storing all my important documents. ....documents...heh heh.... Well, thats all really!
peace. out. holmes. Current Mood: calm like a bomb
I hurt in body and soul. An offhand remark brought my hope crashing down. Oh well. My head hurts. Going to bed soon (hopefully). Current Mood: discontent
|My Mexican works for less than Your Mexican
Thought I'd start over, you know, something new...a fresh start if you will. Lots to report on.
Got a regular X with Halo 2 and Xbox Live
Still working P Chop Seafood....almost 5 months now...almost due for a raise :D
Gonna start managing my time better, so I can see all my friends, I know they miss me so
Gonna start getting rid of all those ninjas in my basement
Gonna go to sleep now motherfuckers
peace. Current Mood: calm